Friday, April 25, 2008

Sum random thoughts on an emo night. (Frens call me the emo king)

If you luv sumone.. u need to "work" in order to get the person's luv. Luv the person e right way.. Do special thins tat makes u special to her.. Let her hav special memories of u tat other guys dun. We need to "fight" 4 our happiness.. rather thn lettin it slip away without even tryin. If u didnt try.. u won noe the results at all. If u tried but failed.. At least u gt an answer n wen u look back as u grow up.. U won be wonderin over the "What if", "Could hav", "If only". Of coz.. U need to noe the limits as well.. Or else the "work" may instead turn into "force" which u will be sorta hurtin the person u luv unintentionally.

I fought 4 my luv.. I would say i did e best i could 4 her.. Thins tat I nv thought i would ever do. I gav her a choice which she made n it wasnt me. So its juz time to learn to let it go.. n move on. Hw many slpless nights hav i had.. Hw many nites hav i shed my tears. For goodness sake im a fukin guy n guys should nt drop tears so easily. But i juz couldnt control my emotions. It hurts. It hurts alot.. N i dun wan it to continue any longer....

All along.. it has been my own wishful tinkin tat she has feelins 4 me. I mean.. I should hav realize tat ever since last yr.. But im still gradually learnin to accept the fact tat I mean nth at all to her.. Its still better late thn never.. I guess the reason she nv really gav me an answer was coz she didnt noe hw to reject me.. Or rather once she really gav me a answer.. I probably wouldnt be treatin her the way I am nw.. But seriously, I dun even noe if im considered a fren to her.... If so.. what kind of fren am I ? Why should I be hidin away.. Avoidin her bf wen we r nth ? True.. we hav had a past history.. But hey she made her choice so why should he fukin make thins so difficult ? Kinda tired of all these already..

I wonder what will happen wen im in NS.. We probably won be contactin each other at all for the 2 yrs unless she breaks off wif him..

One sided luv sux no doubt. Or even worse. One sided luv wif a ger who has a boyfren.

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