Friday, May 16, 2008

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Friends are better than lovers ?

Sumthin im gonna hav to drill into my head. I juz dun hav the luck wif luv. I guess its juz sumthin im nt meant to hav.. Haiz.

Went over to James hse for mahjiong session wif bendan n Kai Xin todae. Played from 3+ to ard 7+ thn went over to JP for dinner at Mos Burger. Nw thn i realize y i keep losin ALWAYS whenever I go to his hse to play. Coz i walk under those freakin clothes. Bendan told me tat it brins bad luck n thn i realize like quite true arhz.. No wonder everytime go lose lahz.. Thn go Kiat hse nv lose.. I swear im gonna walk the normal WALKING PATH nxt time.. NO more shortcuts 4 me.

Slacked n chit chatted besides JP ard the playground until 11+.. Was kinda moody coz well.. I knew bendan wont be able to accompany me 4 my birthday coz he was cumin out. Lol. Funny hw shes the only one who could make me smile.. make me happy.. But shes also the only person who can make me sad. Hw ironic. Haiz. Kai Xin took a cab hm n shortly after bendan's 198 came so she went hm as while.

She called me on the way n asked me y i looked so sad. Lol. I have no idea hw to tell her. I mean.. She should noe exactly hw i feel.. But at the same time she doesnt seem to know anythin. But well if i say it out.. It will only stress her i guess or the worst case.. She will probably ignore me. I hav always felt tat theres nth to celebrate about for my birthday.. I dun like my life at all. I wish it could end rite away. Theres nth here to hold on to. This time.. It only felt even worse. Haha.. Well.. At least she sang me a birthday song over on the fone.......... Haiz.

This feelin sux to the max.

Me