Sunday, June 15, 2008

Day 1. The many more days to cum..... N after im in NS.. the many months.. mayb even the yrs. Lol pathetic.



Thursday, June 12, 2008

Juz recently.. 2 NS guys hav died. Lol. Wen i firz heard the news bout the 1st guy n saw his frenster.. Didnt really tink much. But wen i came to noe bout the 2nd NS guy's death.. After viewin his frenster.. Felt kinda sad. The firz thin tat gt into my mind was.. Why are the ppl who deserve to die, still alive.. But those tat doesnt seem to deserve to die all died =/ It makes me wonder even more if anythin should happen to me wen its my time to go army.

Emo tok wif James on msn. Lol. He wanted to write a last will.. Thins tat he wan to tell his family.. his frens.. Person he luv.. if anithin should happen to him. Didnt tink theres much thins to tell 4 me though.. Im like alrdy prepared 4 death.. I guess theres juz too many thins tat i wan to say.. N sumthins i juz cant put into words.. Which was y i nv thought of writin such thins.

Theres so many ppl i wan to really thank.. But i dun really like sayin thank u.. Or sorry.. N i dun like to hear ppl sayin it to me as well. Ever since readin HunterXHunter.. I hav felt this way.

Classic phrase "朋友之间本来就应该要互相帮助.. 如果为了这种理所当然的事道谢.. 不是很难看没意义吗？"

But if anithin should happen.. Theres really so much thins tat i wan to tell my frens.. Juz a thank u is like won be enough.. But its the 1 thin tat i can only say.. Theres also bendan who i cant let go off..

Cpk.. Alvin, Yingwen, Kenneth, Mother May, Andy. They really stood by me wen i was at the lowest point of my life.. Wen my heart was like totally in pieces.. I really wan to tell them.. Thanks alot alot.

ZZO.. Tze.. Fam.. Dom.. Jin Jie.. Spencer.. Reu.. Wei Cheng.. Shannon.. Guan.. Poks.. Ching Hui.. Frens tat im really lucky to hav known.. Much fun n laughter.. Dotain.. Tokin cork online.. Many thanks as well.

James.. Bro since primary sch.

Vanei.. Who kinda supported me all e way.. Offerin me advices regardin all those luv questions n problems..

Miao who recently always disappears.. But those online tokin cork.. disturbin was fun. Lol.

Qiu Hui.. Motivation 4 poly..

Thanks thanks n thanks.

Most importantly.. Bendan. Words wont be able to describe hw i feel.. I guess if i should write a last letter.. It will juz be a simple one 4 her.. In simple words.. Short but i guess it will be enough.. If nt i will probably need to write a loonngg passage again like my luv letter last time..

Life is long.. yet so short. Haiz. Day 2.



Friday, June 13, 2008

Went Suntec todae wif ZZO. Wanted to go the PC Show to take a look.. From meet 3.30.. Becum meet 4. Furthur waitin until 4.30.. End up reach Suntec at 5+ -.-|| Went to settle our stomachs at KFC. Wanted to go visit bendan at Mac.. But well didnt feel nice to let the rest of them wait.. So we went to the PC Show firz. Went off firz after walkin ard 4 awhile.. Kinda couldnt get over to nt go Mac to actually see her... So i went back Mac.. Saw her but she was in a hurry to go POSB. Lol. No doubt sibei nice timin =/

Took the train back to Lakeside n thn took a cab to Taman Jurong Party World to accompany Qiu Hui to train 4 her singin test. Her singin is zai. Lol. Sang until 12+ n we went hm.

Miss singin wif bendan... Wonder wen will be the nxt time we mj n sing tgt again.. Lol.

Sianz. If i knew he didnt go Suntec todae.. Probably could hav waited 4 bendan to knock off.. mayb walk n shop ard.. =/ Yet again sibei nice timin.

他就是他. Whatever he does.. Whether its a small or big thin.. Good or bad thin.. It juz feels different in her eyes. I guess im juz nt as 伟大 as i thought i could be. "As long as she is happy.. Im happy." True.. Im happy tat shes happy.. But i juz cant get the jealous.. hate feelin out of my fukin head. I can do a million thins 4 her.. wif her.. But in the end, it wouldnt match up to a single thin he does 4 her.. wif her. I mean i should feel happy enough wif the way thins r nw between her n me.. But i juz dont.. No matter hw much i lie to myself.. Sumwhere inside my heart i wish thins can be even better between her n me.

Day 3.



Saturday, June 14, 2008

Went PC show yet again.. This time wif James. Finally really took a walk ard the entire show. This time round doesnt seem bery happenin though. Seems like the show is smaller thn the last IT Fair.

Went to Mac again to see bendan.. This time theres even more ppl there.. Kinda heart pain to see her workin so xin ku. Barely tok to her n i hav to go off since theres alot of customers =/

Walked ard Suntec.. Was kinda tired so we went TCC to rest 4 awhile b4 goin hm.


Was gonna watch Kungfu Panda wif Grace, Ying Ling, Xiao Mei n Jonathon.. Kinda lazy to go back hm n thn go JP again.. So went over to James hse firz to play PS2. DragonballZ is damn high lahz.. Lol. Damn i thought i gt gamin talent.. But dun noe y always lose.. Juz wen i finally found a damn nice character to use.. Grace called us to go Wen Jun's hse to get our movie tickets. She was like so kan jiong.. Like rushin to go giv birth liddat o.o Cabbed over to Wen Jun's place to get our tickets n we walked back to Pioneer Mall to meet Jonathon b4 goin back JP.

Pretty nice show.. Quite funny as well. Wan to jio bendan to watch one.. But she was goin to watch wif her mac colleagues.. Awws.


After tat.. Went Bukit Timah to eat prata since we were kinda hungry. Slacked n tok cork sing song 4 awhile n we went hm. Awws.. I wan to get my license arhz !! Lol.

Kai Xin said tat im like so gd.. Everytime can go enjoy. Lol. But m i ? I wonder. The only times wen im really enjoyin to the fullest.. Tat i dun hav to tink of any other thins.. Tat i can say tat those r the days.. The moments tat im happiest wif my life.. Are the times spent wif her =/

Day 4. N I so miss her smile.. her voice.. her everythin =/

After goin 1 big round.. It appears tat im still stuck at the same startin point.....

Haiz....

I guess i can never luv another person.. As much as i luv euu.

Me