Monday, July 19, 2010

I think I really get distracted too easily. I seem to be able to only concentrate and focus on my goals temporarily for awhile but gradually I will lose that tempo and go back to the slacking and fuck it attitude.

I know I decided that I will be studying in SIT but honestly I am kinda disappointed in myself. Afterall this bridging course is more like a course to prepare and to test myself after slacking for so long. I didn't really expect that after the decision to go SIT, My attitude difference would be so great, Even failing my economics test.

So much for finding back myself. I am still in the same old fucking place.

I think I need to get a planner so that I can plan for every single thing in advance from now on.

Damnit. I really need to do something for myself for once. Come on focus focus focus.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

I am getting sick of this part time school shit. Can't really find a suitable job that wants me because they want someone who can give in their 100%... But for now, I honestly can't give in my 100% to work because of my exams in August. And then for part time schooling.. I guess I can't really join any clubs or CCAs because of the totally different time slots. I always wanted my University life to be more fulfilling unlike Poly days and I really wanted to experience the feeling of being inside a club or CCA and enjoying it with friends. Damn.

Caught in between 3 choices now.. Change to a similar full time course in SIM ? Go to SIT which will be starting in August ? Or continue on in Manchester.

Staying in SIM will definitely be a preferred choice.. But for the other similar full time business course by Birmingham.. The university itself isn't ranked as high as Manchester.. Although the grades to enter are the same which means that theres gotta be a certain standard still.... Fuck I can't seem to decide what to do. FML.

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